just a dream to have something to post

We were having a great time, rekindling our friendships, flirtations included this time.  Maybe my sister was there?  Unrecognizable location.  Kind of like a woodsy video game scene. Sheets hanging to divide rooms, dark, brown and neutral tones, sepia-like lighting all over.  He invited me to stay over, though I don’t think he knew his brother was there, and I don’t think he meant for me to lie in his bed.  Things were going really well, a true relationship starting again, but in the end, he told me that right now only seemed nice because he had taken the blue pill.  And he didn’t take it often because he didn’t like to take the blue pill.  What he meant was that we could only be friends when/if he took the blue pill.  I got the sense it was an anti-depressant. Again I felt totally shafted.  Again.  But it was more of an explanation than I can remember receiving.  Previously, what he mentioned was that he wasn’t in a good place in his life to make friends or have relationships.